Published in Put It To Rest·Updated 21 hours agoDo You Have Any Scars?There are many kinds of scars that we carry. — Some are external and some are internal. Some are visible to others and some only to ourselves and those that know us intimately. I have a few physical scars. There’s one on my face from the time I ran into a barbed-wire fence as a kid. …Emotions3 min read
22 hours agoPut Your Hands In MineI am here to keep you safe — Sit Criss Cross applesauce across from me Put your knees on mine Look into my eyes Let me take all of your pain All those worries that keep you up at night Put your hands in mine And know that you are safe I will put my hand on your…Poetry1 min read
1 day agoWhen I RealizedYou could see inside of me — Inside My heart That had been Blackened And charred By the years Of Disengagement Where I had only had Small talk with Strangers And no one saw Me completely And then I saw I was putting on a show Because that’s How I was groomed I cried when I realized …Love Poems1 min readWhen I RealizedYou could see inside of mePhoto by Alimarel on UnsplashInsideMy heartThat had beenBlackenedAnd charredBy the yearsOfDisengagementWhere I had only hadSmall talk withStrangersAnd no one sawMe completelyAnd then I sawI was putting on a showBecause that’sHow I was groomedI cried when I realized…----1
1 day agoI Am A Christian TooAnd I have had an abortion — I am a Christian too I believe in a God that loves me I believe in forgiveness And I had never carried so much shame until I aborted my child At the age of 16 A baby myself Do you think that women and girls Just stand in line at the…Abortion4 min read
1 day agoThis World Can Be a Sad PlaceAnd life can feel heavy — When your partner has other plans When your crush doesn’t reciprocate When women’s rights get taken away by some Republican Man Based on God's design God's design is that children are cared for And there are so many My own included That would have had a shitty start in life …Abortion1 min read
1 day agoIn America We Have RightsJust not if you are a woman — The heaviness of what I feel right now The weight of the heavens on my shoulder Is God really looking down and cheering? Does God really celebrate Supreme Court decisions? Is this a heavenly decision as some rightwing would think? Is this the answer to get all the heathens to…Women2 min read
Published in Put It To Rest·Jun 20It Scares MeTo Feel Too Good — I’m an addict and I have to be careful. Good feelings remind me of being drunk or high-they are euphoric and when they come they come hard. I am an all-or-nothing person. Very rarely is there a gray area. I’m on a slippery slope afraid to get burned. I’m afraid…Recovery3 min read
Published in Put It To Rest·Updated Jun 18I Was TaughtTo be a woman — All I need to do is bat my eyelashes to get what I want Show a little more cleavage Add in a dumb little nervous laugh Act submissive They like that, you know? Men won’t like you for your brains or witty humor It’s tits and ass, so keep them tight…Poetry1 min read
Jun 14I’ve Had A Coffee RelapseAnd it’s like the new gateway drug — I had been off of caffeine for five years. It was giving me anxiety in an already anxious time so I decided to detox. I had yerba mate and green tea for a month to wean myself off of coffee and then switched to Dandy Blend (A caffeine-free coffee-like beverage…Coffee4 min read
Jun 14I Am Momming So HardAnd summer break just started — Already I have made lists and chore charts I have had a family meeting laying out the expectations for summer break I have created outlines and spreadsheets I have listed expectations and consequences for not meeting those For example: If I find wrappers, socks, dishes, or other miscellaneous things strewn…Parenting3 min read